Col. 3:4 When Christ who is your life appears, then you also will appear with him in glory.
It seems like I always come back to that fateful day in August of 1994 when the Lord spoke to me while I was lying on the floor of our church. I was basking in His glory, overcome by the power and intimacy of His presence. That’s whenI heard the clear impression in my spirit posed as a question. “Am I enough for you?” I clearly heard the Lord say to me. “If you never have a great church, if you never rise to a greater level of success am I enough?”
I was starting to get it. The Lord was a jealous God. There would be no room for other gods, whatever form they took, in my life. He clearly made a distinction between the work of the ministry and Himself. He wanted my affection, not my performance or accomplishments. God was revealing Himself to me as a lover, not a professional. He wants to be our life itself, not just a part of our lives. Charles Spurgeon understood this and expressed it in his comments about today’s verse.
“Christ is the object of our life. As speeds the ship towards the port, so hastes the believer towards the haven of his Savior’s bosom. As flies the arrow to its goal, so flies the Christian towards the perfecting of his fellowship with Christ Jesus. As the soldier fights for his captain, and is crowned in his captain’s victory, so the believer contends for Christ, and gets his triumph out of the triumphs of his Master. For him to live is Christ. Christ is the exemplar of our life. Where there is the same life within, there will, there must be, to a great extent, the same developments without; and if we live in near fellowship with the Lord Jesus we shall grow like him. We shall set him before us as our Divine copy, and we shall seek to tread in his footsteps, until he shall become the crown of our life in glory. Oh! how safe, how honored, how happy is the Christian, since Christ is our life!”
That day my life changed. I like to call it my second conversion. From that day I have endeavored to be a lover of God and no longer a professional minister. At the end of the day the work belongs to the Lord. All He really wants from me is my heart.